December 2012 pt. 1

My grandfather had a Stage 3 Brain Cancer, we never knew he had a a cancer. He was send to the hospital on December 11, the doctor send him to MRI SCAN to search the problem with brain. The doctor expect it was stroke but after after a few days later, we found out it was stage 3 Bain Cancer.


December 13, I ask my cousin to go out with her cause I really bored sitting at home playing the laptop. I never expect she'll answer "ok" when I ask her to go out. She pick me\up after he class, we when to her favourite mall to buys something shoes, accessories and all. I went hungry so I bring her to Johnny's Restaurant. We order Steam Chicken with noodle, BBQ Chicken with noodle and a plate of BBQ Chicken with a glass of Coffee Milk Shake & a glass of  7-UP. After we order, she ask me "Who gonna pay for the lunch?" I said "Didn't I said I gonna pay it on Twitter last night?" She went blush. She really cute but she 5 years older then me. We talk about many things during our meal. I end up taking her noodle cause she can't finish it. hahaha XD She always treat me like her own little brother but I never knew that. After lunch, we go buy 4 DVD. I pick PE-3 (malay movie), Stolen (Nicholas Cage), MIB 3 (Will Smith) and she pick Twilight Saga : Breaking Dawn pt.2 . Before she pay the dvd, I pay it for her. She really surprised XD We went home, she said she wanna charge her phone at grandmother's house (I stay there for a month) . My Grandmother ask her to send Grandmother to the hospital to visit Grandfather. She said " Why don't we all go?" We all agree and went to the hospital after ASAR. When we arrived at Grandfather's bed, there's so many guys around and it was my Grandfather's friend. After half an hour, my cousin's father went by. He ask  us everything we do and what we eat. WE'RE NOT DATING! While we talk to her dad, my Grandfather's niece came, She said to me "Pandai mengorat anak dara orang" and I was like T^T I get rid of that feeling. When we about to leave, My Aunty came to take care of Grandfather for the night.


On December 14 was my baddest day of my life cause I did stupid things. I ask my cousin (from above story) to date her, and I told her some love words . She told me " What are you doing? You can't probably love me. Besides, I don't like fall in love with my cousin" I went silence after that, she won t even reply my tweets and text after I told her that.


December 16, before I went home with my family, We went to the hospital, I didn't expect my cousin's brother will be here as well. We went to Grandfather's room, she was there as well with her mother. I really shocked and I didn't even spoke to she or her brother. I didn't look at her face cause I was scared. I never felt like that before cause I fall in love with my cousin after we went out together.



That's for part 1, there will be another part after Christmas ^w^ To all my viewers I'm sorry that I didn't
post anything in the blog recently cause I was busy helping my grandfather before he went to the hospital. I wish I can take it back for what I said to her. Any more question, ask me on Twitter @udenbeater .

For My Beautiful friends from Singapore

5 Months ago, I met 2 lovely friends from Singapore~ They are so friendly & adorable <3 <3 <3 ^w^ They treat me like their own siblings, hehe. I really like them, I wish I could met them someday but I can't after my grandpa went sick, I couldn't left my country or my hometown ;~; My grandpa almost 80 years old and he acts like a little boy. He not crazy but he ( Old People Disease) . 

I wish I could met You @wanni19 and @skullheartz . I'm really sorry ;~; But I promise you guys. Even we can't met this few years but ONE DAY We'll I promise.

Sad

My sister always think about herself, never care about other. She always think she the king of this family. I fucking hate you!? I'll can you If you make something like that even we are blood-related !? I don't care! And you always ask mom n dad blaming me If something happen to my little bro! You think that wasn't hurt?! Its hurt until I feel like I wanna kill myself. You guys never think about me, you make me like I didn't exist in this world!? I don't care you're my family. I feel like this for 3 years now, no one know about me having this problems!


To Mom & Dad:

                        Mom & Dad if you  take sis n little bro sides whenever they make the problem not me who did it, I'll run away from this house or you'll lose one of your child forever. Can you help me more than my sis n bro? Can you be more miserable if something happen to me? You guys never remember my birthday, I feel really sad when no one celebrate my birthday. But how come you remember her n his birthday & not me?! I'm your only first son in this family, If you want my Insurance that much, TAKE IT!!!! I don't need that MONEY TO COVER MY DEATH!?


Please do everything you can before I die. You guys don't know that you son will die If he keep doing bad habits. And right now his lungs are not in good condition.

About the Field Trip

Hey guys, I wanna talk about my field trip. I didn't expect something to happen during the field trip.

On my first day, I went UIA (University Islam Antarabangsa) , Gombak for 2 hr and its kinda boring and not fun at all. Next, we go to Pusat Sains Negara, Kuala Lumpur . I hate to remember the event there cause all my friends are dating there and I really jealous when I saw them >.> They make my eye hurt to see. After that, we when to I-City, Shah Alam but on the way to there I saw My Mom University UM (University Malaya) . We when inside Snow Walk, I didn't expect we go there but It's really fun. I play with my friend but I accidently hold her hand. I didn't know how her boyfriend knew that ( I'm not a playboy ) . On that night, we sleep at SM Sains Kajang. All my friends really piss off with the guy at that school and we almost had a fight with them. Before I when to sleep, her boyfriend give me a warning and I totally ignore his warning. ( Why I should Keep away from her? She is my friend )

On my second day, I when to Istana Kehakiman, Putrajaya. That place was really big and really scary with everyone look at us like we guilty. We when to their Library then their courts and I really fun. After that, the lawyer want us to when inside a conference courts but I didn't go cause I have to take care my teacher children. Then, we went to Malacca. ( I don't want to tell you about this place and the rest of the day ) We sleep at Asian Detergent Resident.

On My last day, I when to Nilai, Negeri Sembilan for shopping. Its really bored there cause every 2 weeks I when there. Many of my friends buy something for their family except me. I feel a little sad about I didn't buy anything for my family. After than, we when to MMU (Malaysia Multimedia University) , Cyberjaya. I really like that University and I told the Lecturer of MMU I gonna study there. They really happy but One of my teacher told them about my mother and I really hate people telling to other people about my family == .


That's all about my field trip. Please left a comment about this post. I hope you all like it. Thank You.

War has come to an End~!

Tomorrow is my last day of examination! No more school No More Teacher, I'm free at last! But Life was just began ^^ Its kinda fun go to school sometimes but I rather relax at home and playing games . Tomorrow's paper are Math 2 paper and Living skill 1 paper. I want to score this paper!

On Wednesday I'll go on a field trip to Kuala Lumpur and Malacca for 3 days and 2 night. I'll go to Shah Alam, visit some University around the place and more. I'll stay at SM Sains Selangor for the first night and I'll stay at a villa at Malacca for the second night. Its gonna an exciting field trip! I will tell you more after the field trip. I hope everyone had a good time ^^ Jaa Nee

Gang Member

I ask my dad a permission so I can be in a gang but My Dad say I shouldn't cause When we in trouble we should ask God to help us. I agree what he said to me but I was surprised when My Dad talk about his old day. He rarely speak about it ^~^ He not sociable to his son but he still an amazing Dad~!

Dad told me 7 of his uncle was a gang member and they are in Legendary Gang In Somewhere I can't told you. Some of them still alive and the other disease in some case I think. 

This is only What I can say. See you on Next Post

Stress and Tired, Hatred

I'm fucking stress and tired these day..... I got no time to updated this blog cause my schedule is fill with school activity. FUCK!? Everyday when home late, almost a day at school. ;~; I did this cause I want to change my life, change to a school that suitable for me. 

This week my best friend almost make me kill him when he give me a warning for talking to "Special girl" in my class. You think who I am? Following your order? I'M NOT YOUR DOG YOU FUCKING BESTFRIEND!? AFTER MAJOR EXAM, I'LL KILL Y'ALL!? 

I'll do everything it takes to make you shut up!? What's wrong with you people lately? Does Saitan control you guyys?

12 day left...

12 more day for my Major Exam ...... I think I have prepared for it and I was chosen to be in a night class at my school~! ^w^ I really Happy cause If I study alone I easily get bored! Fucking Yeah!?



Sorry guys I didn't been active lately, this week nothing special happen. :3 I hope next week I can get more prepared then today. This is the only thing I wanna say, Bye

Hatred!?

Mom why you only loves Little bro and Nee?? I just about to recover from my tiredness and stress from the examination almost close but you only care about Nee with her stupid selfishness!? You never thought of me, only think about them. You want to know something? I always thought I was an adopt child in this Family cause 3 years after Nee born, I came to this family. After 2 years, My little bro come to this family. I never get enough love from my parent's .......


Next week My mom said we have to see my Nee again, When I have time to study for my examination???? You said you wanna release my stress right Mom? But its not!? Its make me more stress then before ! I study cause I wanna a new life next year from this shitty town!


PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME LIKE THIS! I WANAN HAVE AN HAPPY LIFE THAN STRESS EVERYTIME'S I HAD MAJOR EXAM COMING! FUCK!?

UnHappy Week.....

Few days ago, my friend's Suki ask me to stop calling her and text her cause her boyfriend mad at her for friend's with me :( If I get to see her BF, I gonna kill him in front of her. He didn't deserve to be her FUTURE HUSBAND!? 

   And Today.... I lose hope on my friends Umiy (classmates). She didn't reply my text, smile and even look at me when I go near hear and while I talk to her.... What The Hell wrongs with her lately????? FUCK!? >:C


      This every unhappy week for me... I think GOD testing me, Maybe. But I wont think about the past cause I wanna go forward and ahead from everyone else :3  Sorry I didn't post anything lately cause I busy study for my major exam on Oct 9th. 


To contact me, Twitter: @NaLuDragneel , email: natsu.dragneel1849@gmail.com , and ask.fm/NaLuDragneel . Facebook I can't give it to you cause major breakdown lately.... Jaa Nee

I think.....

Hey fellow viewer! I want to tell you guys that I will post something to this blog 2 days 1 post or maybe a week 1 post cause I need to study for my Major Examination on October 9th. About 20 more day to get prepared..... I hope you guys read this and please share this to other fellow viewers~!

Thins on mah head now...

Books and books but there something I can't tell you cause I don't want to make my viewer thinks bad thing about me == so This is what I wanna say today.


See me on Twitter, Ask.fm and more. I wont giving you guys my FB cause it my personnel acc. Sorry, Good Night ~! ^^"

Sad night

Last week, I call my friend from the place I was born. She didn't even answer or reply..... ;~; I waited for you day and night...Without you I feel nothing even we just friends.....

But on Monday night, She answer the call from me. I was really happy back then~! C: I talk to her like we use to talk, I said to her " We'll see each other after our Major Exam, just wait for me" She really surprised when I told her that. After I told her that she began to sad and cry, I ask her what's wrong, she kept silence for a few more minutes. 

She began to speak and she told me "Can you not call me or text me?" I ask her Why? She say "My boyfriend keep ask me are you keep calling me or text me, I couldn't hide it from him so I told him. That's why I didn't reply your call and text, Few day's ago we had fight about you. I give up to defend about you to him..... I'm sorry" I said to her "Ow, I should say sorry for making you in trouble" She keep bagging for me not to call her or text her again....

I couldn't do anything but to just follow what she ask for and remains silence for hours now..... But after I think about it again and again. I realize something,  I should wait or go to her house on her birthday without any license and but her some present that her boyfriend couldn't give to her except text her~!!!! I really happy I could share this to my fellow viewers.

This is what happen to me! Need more detail, ask me on twitter ( @NaLuDragneel ) or go to ask.fm/NaLuDragneel , Jaa Mate Nee~

Last 3 days

3 days ago I when to my sister house at Her college (I can't tell you guys the place). Me and my family stay there for 2 days, Its really boring cause there was no internet connection........FUCK COLLEGE!!!
I almost when crazy!

Eventually I help her take her belongings from her old house, I carry a refrigerator with 2 volunteer student from that college...I'm glad they help If they don't I wont be here WRITING THIS BLOG! Not only refrigerator but I also carry 16kg of gas tank on my shoulder to her Condo. I forgot to mention that her Condp was on the second floor from her BLOCK!? SHIT THAT GUARD ASS!!???

It was so tired....I feel like I gonna XD

September 12th

Today is my last day being 14 and Ellah last day being 15. She and I will do something together during our birthday~! ^w^ 
I hope she will prepared for the surprise present that I had prepared for months.....

I have fall in love on you, I wanted to tell you but I too shy to tell you. Tomorrow I'll definitely tell you ! <3 I'll sacrifice everything to have you by my side...... Ellah I love you~!!! :333

Bad mood....

I just got mad by my parents for coming home late.....They really worried about me, they call me about 20 times asking me the location I have been....

Mom and Dad I really sorry for action today....I know I should be punish but please don't rise your voice when we talk tomorrow. I begging you.

This is what happen today to me, They mad at me cause I go to workshop without telling them. I really a bad ass, making my old mans worry but I wont do that again until my major exam finish.


I'll ask you guys a question, What is the most Fun Part in my Blog? Reply this at ask.fm/NaLuDragneel & my twitter @NaLuDragneel. See you guys later~!

This is for you

I want to say about you, I wanted to be with you, cuddle you, kiss you and other stuff with you. You're the most special girl I ever met and the one who perfect for me.... Ellah I want you as my girlfriend even I have to die just to get you......

You're my HIME (Princess), Ellah will you? 

Buying parts

Today I loose my money again for buying some parts for my motorcycle. It cost me 35 MYR and I only have 40 MYR. Only 5 MYR balance......I'm broke!? 

Guys sorry I didn't post anything yesterday cause there was nothing fun or weird happen. 

September 5th 2012

Today I'm so happy even though I'm not well, many of my friends talk to me and care about me. I'll pray for you guys to stay healthy and enjoy your life~! 

I want to talk about a girl that I found on twitter that have the same personality, same way of thinking and have a the same birthday as me. I wanted to be her boyfriend but she hard to get cause she want to ask guys to be her boyfriend.

She got a fighting spirit that I like about her, she never give up when trying new thinks and never feel down when people say she weird. I amazed about her being weird than others.

7 more day till OUR BIRTHDAY ELLAH~! I WANTED TO GIVE YOU A BIRTHDAY PRESENT BUT THE TAX IS IN THE WAY. I hope your birthday this year are more Fun and Exciting from before~! I love you so much~! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Bored

Today nothing special or great happen, just plain day like usually. But I want to talk about a girl from Twitter that I knew her from earlier this year.

She was the best friend I ever had, and she so beautiful, cute & adorable. Yesterday I ask her to marry her but she decline me....I feel so sad and wanted to die but I try to change myself and try to be a new & a better man. 

I hope you'll find someone who can take care of you well Ellah, I'll be here If you need me~ <3 

This is all for today, I'll post more activity if happen any tomorrow, Jaa Matte Nee~

No one wanna talk to me

Today no one care about me.......I feel like I'm Statue of Liberty waiting for someone to talk to me. Why you guys never talk to me like we always do, I forgive to people who are busy but to people that ignore me,. I wont forgive them until the end of the world!

I care about you, do you care about me? FUCK YOU!? This is for twitter

Unexpected things happen

Today at 1706hr, My friends Suki ask me to call her. I really nervous but I can't let her down, I call her and talk like friends always do. I wish you a good luck for PMR and for myself as well, I hope we can see each other soon without seeing your boyfriend with you!

Yesterday I bought a racing block for my Wave RS 110, the owner say to me "No one have done this before except you, people only make this motorcycle look cool and you make it fast" I said to him "I'm a racer what can I say" I lose about 100 MYR and now I BROKE!!!!!!!!! Next week I'll assemble the block to my motorcycle

Hey Guys, this blog will be my diary or a love diary. I think that the same meaning but ow well. This blog I'll post about my daily activity before I gone forever or something.....Hope you guys enjoy this blog, by the way I'm not a girl!